Before I knew who Jesus was I knew myself as Stupid Object. For some of you, you’re repeating,”yep” in your head. You know what I’m about to say before it’s said. I’d like to say I’m sorry if you already shook your head in agreement with me. Just remember God is the mighty redeemer. For the others, eyebrows are wrinkled together as you scratch your head. Let me explain.
Stupid Object came from a combination of events. It started with being made fun of in school by others kids. The jokes were mostly about my lack of intelligence. Then, the name opened a new wound when I became a victim of rape at fourteen. Lie after lie saturated my thoughts and I got to a point in life where I merely gave up.
Unfortunately there is not enough time today for all the details of the giving up point. However, I will say that when I gave up, God took my place and walked in.
For the past three years I have passionately pursued God. Within this time He has started a restoration process on my heart. Day after day a tiny nugget is chipped off the boulder of lies I sit on. As God faithfully works on me each day, I’ve been able to come to a point where I no longer claim Stupid Object. In a faint distance I hear a whisper, a new name, Strong Beauty.
This summer I jumped back into school and it was not something I decided on my own. God led me to it. At first I was confused as to why He wanted me there, but now it makes so much sense! In order to go back to school I had to conquer fears. Fears that started to build in me at the age of 7.
He wanted to love me in a new way and teach me more about Himself. He wanted prove to me how good He is. So he could show me, Yes, I care about your relationship with your professors. Yes, I will give you ideas for papers. Yes, I will be with you when you share your opinions in class. Yes, I can provide for you financially. Yes, you are smart! Yes, you can do this! Yes, you are on the path I set for you!
Get it yet?