Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I'm ADHD and God knows it!

Here we are at the end of the month. The National Novel Writing Month of 50,000 words, late nights and extreme writers block.

I am going to go ahead and tap out this month. I only completed 5,000 words, with 45,000 more to go! This is not a fail but a work in progress. Writing a novel in a month was a bigger task than I anticipated. I somehow thought I could work two jobs, keep up inventory for craft shows, obtain a social life and write a book all in 30 days. Oh, and sleep.

Excuses they are not! They are a lessons. I have been busy this month, more busy than most. But God has definitely taught me something, something I already knew. I have ADHD. 

Diagnosed with it several years ago taking it into consideration for simple tasks, mostly for focusing in school. Never considering it for larger things in life like; jobs, hobbies or relationships. I am guilty of being the person that gets very excited about something, goes full force and then quits. Then coming back to the "wonderful idea/hobby/decision" or whatever it may be a few months later. I have known this about myself for a year now and am slightly frustrated that it took 23 years to figure out.

Anyways, back to me trying to make a point.

God is teaching me my rhythm. Having ADHD at times I like to have a lot going on, other times I want to work on one thing or rest. This month was a time for a lot going on. Honestly, now that it's coming to a close I'm feeling like I need to get back to bed and rest! Luckily, God loves me to bits and pieces and is giving me a nice breather next week. (Vacation time and done with crafting for the year! Woot!)

I had a discussion with a wonderful woman two weeks ago about God knowing her rhythm. I've been very blessed by that conversation. While God has been with me all along; in the ups and downs, busy times and resting ones, He knew what I needed in order to function best. Now that I'm learning how I operate best I've been able to use my time wisely and take advantage of the little things in life. Also, now that I know this about myself I've been less stressed and been about to see the bigger picture. I finally feel normal having two jobs, craft shows, writing and different groups. This is me, this is my normal. It's crazy, but beautiful.


  1. beautiful piece! it definitely has opened my eyes to see my own rhythm too.

    1. Thank you love! I hope you find it, life is such a sweet thing when you do!:)

  2. NaNoWriMo is HARD. I think even if you're completely organized you can't control the way your mind works.

    There's always next year!


I truly appreciate you reading Denim and Eve! Thank you for the love!